I have been meaning to write so much…there is constantly so much going around in my head that is supposed to make it to this blog and I never have a moment to sit down and write it out.
Luckily, I finished homework a little early, and while I’m watching my lovely TLC shows, it’s time to get them out.
I have experienced so much in the past month or so, it’s been very eye opening and wonderful and scary and suspenseful all at the same time.
Firstly, an update on Dad – he’s been getting his chemo every three weeks and getting scans. The cancer is basically gone from his lungs, which is incredible because that’s the only place it spread to besides his tumor. Way to kick stage four cancer right in the ass, Daddio. The tumor is still there and they are working on trying to see how it’s shrinking/if it’s shrinking, but I guess the way that it is situated makes it hard to see in a CAT scan. He’s got a scan coming up on the 13th, and what we are praying is that soon, like the doctors even said, they might be able to consider some “maintenance work” which would be something different than chemo because it’s really breaking Dad’s spirits right now. It’s really hard on him, and it’s hard to watch him go through so much just to be able to live – obviously for himself, but for us too. It makes you feel so guilty. They didn’t say that for sure they would be able to try something new or when they would, so we just have to see. I think what’s the hardest on our family is that all of us are not very good at not being in control of what’s going on. It’s a life changer and point of view changer, for sure.
Next, I got to fulfill a life dream of sitting in the front row of the Fox Theatre awhile back ago. Mind you, this was at Curious George Live, haha, but the best part of all of it was that I got to see my beautiful Marty on stage doing what he was born to do. It was honestly a dream come true. I was so dewy eyed the entire time, and it was extra fun because my Mom was right next to me. We talked about when I was a little kid going to see Sesame Street Live with my Uncle Rich, and I thought it was kind of sweet that we were together doing that again. I have not felt pride like that in so long. My heart swelled for my super star who I have always known would be doing this. It was so inspiring and it made me question my own goals and what really makes me happy. (Back to that soon!)
Next was Sam and John’s wedding which was fulfilling another self prophecy of how amazing it would be when it happened, haha. And let me tell you, it was even better! I don’t know a couple who belongs together more than Sam and John, and Dave and I had a blast hanging with old friends and meeting new ones. We took a bunch of great photo booth pictures and had lots of fun dancing. I feel so honored to have shared such a special day with two of the best people I know, and I can’t wait to see where life takes them and US together! <3
Rocky opened and closed in what seemed like a whirlwind of constant new casting and changes to the theory of the show, but it was as fun as ever and ended up being received very well. I definitely enjoyed meeting so many new friends and I think my favorite part of the Rocky experience is seeing next cast members participate in a midnight show for the first time – I swear, you feel like you’re famous. It’s just incredible. That show makes you feel so good about yourself, how you look, who you are – and I wish we could all harness that feeling more in our daily lives. I’ll definitely miss it and it makes me a little sad that it seemed to fly by so so so fast this year.
One thing I’ve realized from all of this is that I’ve got to sink my teeth into some creativity soon. Like, BIG TIME. I am rounding home base on the having a degree in Child Development thing, and I just would really love to get involved in the theatre in a bigger way. I know I need to work on my physical being and brush up on my skills, but I’d like to say I have the experience of audition for something real. I think I could do it, honestly. Especially children’s theater…it’s like I was meant to do it. I am just longing to work somewhere that has a solid staff and a good work ethic and somewhere that cranks out some serious shows…I can do this. Details to follow as I pursue this idea, whether it be trying to find a new group to audition for, etc. whatever…I don’t know just yet.
Life is great, even though at times right now it seems a little rough. I am nannying two amazing little girls who constantly make me smile and make me proud of them. I enjoy my time at Gymboree, and the center at HFCC where I am logging practicum hours. I love my man more than words can explain. I just got to belt it from my toenails on stage and it felt so good to make music and art with people that I love. Tootsie Rolls and Arnold Palmer Lites are delicious as ever, and Christmas is just around the corner. When times get hard, I think I’ll try to write a little more about what’s going on in my life and fill that bucket – it’s amazing what a positive attitude and a little reflection can do.
Sláinte Mhath!
