It's time...

It's time for a little less of that

and a little more of this.

beautiful veins and bloodshot eyes

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Above you will find a sample and a link to the amazingly fun photoshoot I had with the darling Sam Sawnick. She is doing a summer project of taking portraits of those she loves, and she's doing a great job. I had so much fun, and I hope she found some artistic stimulation in laughing and rolling around in nature with me. I always feel so vain when the focus is put on my physical beauty, (not to mention awkward, because I'm no Miss Tyra) but Sam made the experience so enjoyable and the I think you can tell truth of that in my eyes in some of these pictures. :)






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Next, you'll find a link to a little side project I'm working on - a book that is part read/part journal and is alot of fun. I read this book probably about 2 years ago and loved it - I actually couldn't put it down. I neglected to complete the journal/project that went along with it, and recently while looking for a bit of a pick me up, I entertained the idea of picking it back up and journaling through this book. I definitely don't expect anyone to want to follow, but if you do, you can do so by clicking above.


I've picked up about five books in the last three weeks and I've made the mistake of starting and falling in love with all of them. My most exciting read is going to be having the honor of reading my friend's novel before she sends it out to be published and become renowned and famous. :) Once I have the official copy of that, everything gets set aside!

I'm having a hard time finding the energy to do much lately, let alone write about how much I am lacking energy, but the impending thunderstorm gave me hope and I grabbed a glass of wine and a comfy seat, and after doing an exercise from I am Diva, I'm spent. I don't even have a song to post this time. I'm sure I will soon.

musica....

I don't know what it is lately about music that's been hitting me so hard lately, but I've been in this strange appreciation of lyrics and melody and chord progressions and how beautiful they all are - so many songs seem so significant right now.

At any rate, it's only 8 in the morning and this one just seemed really important today as I heard it on the radio.



I had never seen the music video. I really like it. Simple, beautiful pictures - and it reminds me so much of something someone would do now so easily with powerpoint for any occasion and it was probably so new to people then. Gosh, he loved her so much.

I have so much love in me. I love my Mom, Dad, and Brother. I love my family - it was so nice to have a couple of them out here this weekend. I love Dave so much (Maybe I'm amazed at the way you help me sing my song, You right me when I'm wrong- Maybe I'm amazed at the way I really need you.) I love my friends too. I love my coworkers, and I love the girls. I'm starting to sound like Jessica and her daily affirmations...



I think she's onto something. :) Why don't we do this more often?

This land is your land...

To live in a country where Lady Liberty always keeps her flame burning bright....makes me proud to be an American. :) (Dear lord, I love this movie.)

Anyway, Happy 4th. I, unlike alot of people I know, don't think it's uncool to live in America. Alot of the stuff we do sucks, yes I agree. I have to say though, I am very thankful to have been born a woman in America, because in many other countries I wouldn't be allowed to do the things I love, say the things I want, or even be treated humanely, truthfully. The idea of America is still beautiful to me. <3

de ba de dah day....

This is hands down the greatest song ever written and I’ve always thought that it fits my life cuz I’m always crazy stressed, but now more than ever I know how much passion was put into this beauty.

Dad’s in the hospital, and I feel like he’s stuck in an inbetween right now. He’s doing a lot of amazing things that they didn’t think he’d be able to do, trying so hard, but he’s still in and out of awareness and needing a boost in platelet levels to be able to heal.

I think I’ve sat around in my life thinking about what I would do if I were ever in this situation with someone that I love – and I really consider myself to have a level head, a big heart, and a body that I can push to the limits when it comes to caring for people and doing a lot of stuff – but I will tell you flat out, this is harder than anything I’ve ever experienced in my life. My heart goes out to other people in the world who’ve gone through this with family members.

You just try to give yourself and the ones you love another chance. You do your best to do what you can then you come home and cry your eyes out. You don't eat. You don't sleep. You just try to laugh and know that you're loved.

Insanity laughs under pressure we're cracking...

dad

once again -

i'm trying to be brave
cuz when i'm brave
other people feel brave
but it feels like
my heart is caving in.

Caving In.

i'm trying to be brave/
cuz when i'm brave/
other people feel brave/
but i feel like/
my heart is caving in/