de ba de dah day....

This is hands down the greatest song ever written and I’ve always thought that it fits my life cuz I’m always crazy stressed, but now more than ever I know how much passion was put into this beauty.

Dad’s in the hospital, and I feel like he’s stuck in an inbetween right now. He’s doing a lot of amazing things that they didn’t think he’d be able to do, trying so hard, but he’s still in and out of awareness and needing a boost in platelet levels to be able to heal.

I think I’ve sat around in my life thinking about what I would do if I were ever in this situation with someone that I love – and I really consider myself to have a level head, a big heart, and a body that I can push to the limits when it comes to caring for people and doing a lot of stuff – but I will tell you flat out, this is harder than anything I’ve ever experienced in my life. My heart goes out to other people in the world who’ve gone through this with family members.

You just try to give yourself and the ones you love another chance. You do your best to do what you can then you come home and cry your eyes out. You don't eat. You don't sleep. You just try to laugh and know that you're loved.

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